My NEWEST Anthem Song: “Listen to me. Am I loud enough?”

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     Stumbled upon this song today. It showed up in my iTunes “hot list” of recommendations for me. With only the bare minimum knowledge of Latin, I did however recognize the word “voce” in the one song title to be the English word “voice”. Well that’s just enough of a nudge these days to peak my curiosity. So out of the four songs recommended for me, this song “Viva Voce” by The Rocketboys got my choice for a click through. One more click, entered my password, and ninety-nine cents later, I own it.

     WOW is my rating out of ten for this song.  It also gets my unsolicited vote to be THE anthem of 2015 for the Domestic Violence community.  It deeply touches on some lyrics really close to my heart also – speaking thanks to “my team”, as I have nicknamed them; those who continue lifting me up these last two plus years as I crawl out of my own silence, finding my voice …

“To all the people I know that listen
LISTEN TO ME, hallelujah!
To all the PEOPLE I know that PRAYED for me
For my safety, hallelujah!

CAN you HEAR me NOW?
I’m SINGING OUT as LOUD as I know how
But AM I LOUD enough?
I got MY VOICE and you got YOURS
so let’s make a little NOISE
ALL TOGETHER NOW!”

The Rocketboys – “Viva Voce” (Lyrics Video)

Why? Reason # 1

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Why? (aka Why share your dirty laundry? just move on with life why don’t you?)

Reason #1:  I have been singing worship songs and actually meaning them … because of my private and outward expressions of surrender to the Lord to direct my footsteps… and because of telling Him regularly that I will do ANYthing, or go ANYwhere and say ANY message He would have for me to share. And then on 10/22/12, as I sat at the courthouse filing a protection order against my husband, it was all about feeling the burden, seeing the gap and hearing the urgency to join up with others gone before me and to become a beacon of hope to others who are still trapped in the bondage of abuse and slavery within their marriages. That day I felt, and I still continue to choose to walk boldly and not be afraid, and to allow my experiences with domestic violence (disguised as discipline in the cloak of misinterpreted scriptures) to be an encouragement to the captives left dense in the fog and to be a wake-up call to the free that have ears to hear the cry of the “least of these”.  If you ask me why – I will ask you “Since when do we get to pick the message He asks us to share?”

“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, Let me walk upon the waters, Wherever You would call me, Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander, And my faith will be made stronger, In the presence of my Savior”

Lyrics from my inspiration song as I took the jump into the great unknown OCEANS (feet don’t fail me) by Hillsong [VIDEO with Lyrics]

CRIED by Candice Glover – No longer holding it in

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To all my of you who have unknowingly cried along with me…. at night, in separate cities, states and countries, all sharing this same bond… “I’m crying out loud, not keeping it in…”

CRIED by Candice Glover [VIDEO]

There’s nothing left
‘Cause you took it all
I hope to fly / But you make me fall
And I’m tired, oh I
I kept a smile for all those years
But I’m so sick of fighting my tears
I’m so tired, oh I
And I’m, at my wit’s end
No more holding it in

So I cried, and I cried, And I cried, and I cried

So I cried, for all of the pain that you brought
And I cried, for all of the heart ache you caused
I tried to be the girl that never complains
But holding it in is driving me insane
So I cried, oh I cried

I’m on a limb / And I’m ’bout to jump
I gave it all / But you gave me none
And I’m tired, oh
Down inside, feel it coming out
I wanna but I can’t stop now
And I’m tired, oh I
And I’m at my wit’s end, Ain’t no more holding it in
So I cried, and I cried, And I cried, and I cried

This is for every time I let it go
All of the nights that I spent alone
It’s been too hard to hold back the pain
So like the cloud let it fall like the rain
(no more hiding, I’m done, no biting my tongue)
Yes I’m gon’ make a sound
‘Cause I’m crying out loud

So I cried, for all of the pain that you brought
And I cried, for all of the heart ache you caused (caused)
I tried to be the girl that never complains
But holding it in is driving me insane
So I cried, and I cried, And I cried, and I cried
Cried, and I cried, And I cried, and I cried
And I cried, and I cried, And I cried, and I cried